Well, I guess I could say I'm good. I'm not exactly perfect, but I'm getting there. I'm still bearing the pain of a broken heart. I thought this would be harder, but it's easier then I thought. Even though, I cry I will get through this, eventually. Everyday I pretend I'm happy, but when I'm alone all I can do is think about *him*, and how far we got, then we failed. I'm all alone now. I have no one to say "I love you" to. I just didn't think I'd be sitting here crying, and grieving over someone, that isn't like me. I guess it was love after all.

I haven't talked to him in three days, and I'd really like to, you know? Just to see how he's doing, and if he's okay. No matter what we've been through he'll always be my friend, perhaps, one of the best I have. And I miss him, I'm not going to lie. But, if he doesn't wanna talk to me, and just keep me out of his life, that's fine too. I guess if he's happy, I am.

On another note, I'm trying to get Eric Kiker (a senior) to go to prom with me. I've never met him, but my friend Brittany said me and him would be perfect for each other. I dunno, but I might as well give him a chance right? If we can get to know each other, when we do meet, we might hit it off. He doesn't even know I exist, because Brittany hasn't talked to him yet. But maybe, just maybe, me and Brittany had a talk, and we might be going to the movies Friday if Kiker is up for it.

It's going to take me a while to warm up to someone again, and even get over Brandon. But I will, and later, me and Brandon are going to look back on all this an laugh. Still having a strong friendship, I know it.

But for now, I'll go, I need a shower, then I gotta go to bed.

That is all

[nicole]