I'll admit I'm wrong if you would just improve your opinion of what you think of me.

Hey everyone. What's going on? Nm here..Just listening to Fall Out Boy..if it matters. Anyway I got a new quote that resembles me today, "In the Darkness for all time". Great isn't it..Blah, why do you people care, I'm pretty sure no one reads these things. But for the people who do, thanks. Thanks for giving a shit about my stupid life. THANK FKN YOU!! I talked to the guy I liked last year for about 10 minutes. His name is Max.. I used to be in love with him..But that was in the beginning of 8th grade. I had a crush on him the first time I layed eyes on him. I was even in his band, but I quit cus I was too scared to talk to him. He was friends with my friend Joe, and that's how I ended up in the band as a keyboardist..Today sucked, my best friend Ryan is in the hospital again, cus his punctured lung, he was complaining that he couldn't breath or anything. I feel bad for him, he doesn't have a mother that cares about him, and his dad is dead. His one way around life was his dad, but no he died. It hurt Ryan so bad. I know it did. I see him thinking sometimes..and I know he's thinking about what it would be like to have a father again. He has an idiotic brother that I hate.. and a sister, I'm not even gunna begin to talk about her. He hates them. He tells me I'm the only important thing in his life. Which I highly doubt. Everyone has something they care about..but I doubt if the thing or person he cares about most in life is me. He asked me out yesterday. I said "no, sorry" and we can all guess why. I'm most likely going to be an exchange student next year. It might be fun. But I'm still thinking about it. I dunno, sometimes I doubt it. But I guess only time will tell. This guy comes up to me..(I don't even know this dude) and he's all "wanna go to the movies with me?" And I'm like "And you are?" And he's like "Nevermind" and hugs me..it was weird..I hate when I'm upset, because no one bothers to even ask "What's wrong?" anymore. It kinda pissed me off, cus I'm there for everyone, whether I'm good friends with them or not. I can't always expect something in return, but can't I have something once in a while? Life is life I guess. I don't really care. People are so cruel. I keep myself from most of them. Well, for not I must go, because I think mother is home. TTYL Love always -Nicole